Monday, April 30, 2012

The Rollercoaster of Emotions and Fears

This week marks my last week at my current job.

Who knew that I grow to love my job and move up with in the company. At 24 not many people have a long term job as well as three different positions within that company. It is also bittersweet time for me because this marks the end of one chapter and the beginning of another.

I am a roller coaster of emotions right now. Petrified to go into the unknown aspects of this move. As much as I can read blogs and email and talk to people who have been to the North. I have never left home longer than two years of university and that was in the same province!

I am excited for the experiences that I know will come with this adventure. I am excited to learn more about my own country and some of the peoples who were here first. I am so full of emotions I am sure I will be crying all week long and into the next .

I am not nervous about the flight much ... mainly worried about luggage getting to were it should be and all ending up in Kimmirut with me. I am worried about my cat and her travel I am sure though my vet will ease those fears this week when we go to visit him.

There are so many times when I think to myself "What in the heck am I doing?" I am excited for me as are alot of my friends and family. I am sure once I am in Kimmirut things will be ok it is just the getting there part that is hard.

I wonder if I can put a blanket apology out to all the people traveling from Fredericton to Ottawa with me that I will be the crying sniffling girl on the plane  and that I am sorry.

Oh well maybe by the 15th my tear ducts will have dried up ..... one can hope!

5 comments:

  1. It's o.k. to cry but you will be just fine.

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    1. You will be fine. You are stronger than you think. I so am going to miss you and all your knowledge. Remember that all of our friends and family are with you, all you have to do is call or go to facebook, we will all be there cheering you on. Don't think of us as being in a different province. We will be right there with you. At least out thoughts and hearts will be with you. And as Lynda says "it's ok to cry". Brenda

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  2. PS 40:1 I waited patiently for the LORD to help me, and he turned to me and heard my cry.
    May God go before you to prepare a path for you.
    Lorraine

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  3. You will do great. Taking the first steps is the hardest part and you've already done that!I have a feeling this is an adventure you will never regret and forever remember :) Ash

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  4. ...from someone that was in your position 3 years ago (and again this past July)... what you are thinking, feeling is NORMAL...it's all part of the adventure!

    Be prepared that all your bags might not make your many connections... and arrive with you at the same time in Kimmirut..(don't' worry they will EVENTUALLY show up but sometimes things get delayed). I'd bring a bit of cat food/kitty litter, change of clothes-even if it's just under things and a few T-shirts, travel sized toiletries with you... in your carry-on.

    As for water-works on planes... I've shed a few tears in my fair share of airports over the years...it happens, but leaving is just part of the journey...it's really just the starting point!

    Feel free to email me any time.. :) Sarah

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